About Me

Having been raised by a single mother, it's been my dream to have a "normal" family with a father, a mother, and children since I was a kid. I got married to a wonderful husband Mike eight years ago. I love my job - I am an oncology nurse taking care of people undergoing bone marrow transplant. Mike got his Master's in Clinical Social Work last year. He recently started his career as Substance Abuse Specialist. We thought it was time to expand our family. One year later, I was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve at age of 32 with an elevated FSH level. My doctor thinks I need "aggressive" interventions right away. I am going to have my first IVF in September 2010.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Want to scream...

So there was another FB posting about a newly pregnant friend. I'm very happy for her. I just want to scream "why not me?" I want to post a pic with a baby bump too... People say that I should not compare my situation to others - one brave person even told me once that "it's not a competition" (and hurt my feelings). It's really not about who becomes pregnant first. It's about me feeling unfair. I don't even know if I will ever become pregnant. I'm living in this uncertainty. How can I not feel jealous to see people getting pregnant without major problems? So again "WHY NOT ME?"
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