I can't sleep. I've been suffering from insomnia for the past few years since I started working night as a nurse. It has been worse during the past few days. I am anxious. Anxiety makes the insomnia worse. And feeling tired from insomnia makes my anxiety worse. So it's basically a vicious cycle. When I was planning for IVF, there were certain rules I made for myself. One of them is that if I don't get at least 3 hr sleep, I can't work. I slept only for 1.5 hr in the past 24 hours. So, I'm not going to work tonight. I feel bad for my colleagues who have to work extra hard to cover my absence, but I don't think I can function like this. I honestly think it is better to stay away than going to work in this condition and possibly making a huge mistake.
I'm not yet ready for the trigger shot. There are about 10 follicles between 15mm and 18mm. My doctor hopes to get all of them. They need to be between 18mm and 20mm. I hope the smaller ones grow fast and the bigger ones slow down a little. I hope they will cooperate. I'm back to doctor's office for more monitoring tomorrow morning.
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