About Me

Having been raised by a single mother, it's been my dream to have a "normal" family with a father, a mother, and children since I was a kid. I got married to a wonderful husband Mike eight years ago. I love my job - I am an oncology nurse taking care of people undergoing bone marrow transplant. Mike got his Master's in Clinical Social Work last year. He recently started his career as Substance Abuse Specialist. We thought it was time to expand our family. One year later, I was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve at age of 32 with an elevated FSH level. My doctor thinks I need "aggressive" interventions right away. I am going to have my first IVF in September 2010.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Moving onto the week 2

I finished birth control pill last Sat. I know it doesn't sound much but I felt a big accomplishment. I'm one step closer to the retrieval, transfer, and hopefully pregnancy. I continue with my twice weekly acupuncture sessions. I like my acupuncturists - Victoria and Erin at Yin and Tonic Acupuncture in Midtown Manhattan. I feel better after each treatment. I think they are helping me to stay positive.

I've been looking at a lot of baby stuff recently. Before, I believed that getting my hopes high would be dangerous. I may not become pregnant. IVF is never 100% (it is actually like 45% in my case but I'm not thinking that). I thought I would get more depressed if I have high hopes going into IVF and it doesn't work. But then, I realized that no matter what mind set I have prior, if this fails, I will be devastated. Even if I am 100% pessimistic right now, I will be equally devastated if I don't get the result I want. If so, then, I should stay optimistic and enjoy this moment by looking at baby stuff and imagining bright future... Right?
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