Cycle starts!

My IVF cycle started today at 9:30am when I took my first Lupron shot. Lupron 10 units subcutaneous in the left abdomen to be exact. To my surprise, I was anxious about getting the medication ready. I am an RN - I have mixed and prepared medications probably 1000+ times in the past. But this one felt very different. It was for me.

I have been feeling how unfair it is that I have this medical problem. I know a plenty of women who are significantly older than I am and yet who have no problem getting pregnant. I get angry. I think I was having this feeling of anger today when I started the medication. Then, I remembered this crazy patient of mine from 2-3 years ago. He was a character. What made him so interesting was that he got SO excited about getting treatments like IV antibiotics, and even some injections. He literally screamed "YAY" when I went into his room with one of the injections. To him, it was a vessel to get better. He was strange, but I have a lot to learn from him. Yes, it sucks that I have this issue. Yes, it sucks that I cannot get pregnant easily. But I have this medication which may -probably will- help me get what I want. A BABY. That's a great thing! I am going to scream "YAY" tomorrow morning before the injection like my patient did ;-)